Keeley

I’m tired of you treating me like shit. I’ve been there for you whenever you have needed me. And the thing is, I always will be. Despite how much of a bad friend you’ve been, I’ll always be here for you. Because despite my many flaws, I’m a good person. I want to help. I care. I want to make things better. But would it hurt you to do the same, or even try? Would it hurt you to just ask me how I am? Bother to respond to my texts? Smile at me, occasionally do something nice for me, just to show that you care? I’m not expecting anything much, I don’t need to be your centre of attention, I don’t need you there 24/7, I just need to know that you’re there. But no, I’m not a priority. Not even close. I only exist when there isn’t someone more ‘important’ or ‘popular’ around who makes you look better. I only matter when you need something. You use me as someone to fall back on because you know I’ll always be there, or you just assume I’m not going anywhere. That I’m going to put up with you treating me like this forever. What about me though? What about all that stuff you know about me? How do you watch me every day, knowing how much I’m struggling, and just overlook it like it’s nothing? But then when you have a problem, I’m expected to treat it as if it’s the only important thing in my life. Like I don’t have my own problems. For you, I have to put all my shit aside and focus on you. I don’t mind doing that. But what hurts is that you can’t do it for me. When I have a problem, your excuse is that you have ‘too much going on’ in your own life. You cannot take a second out of your time to stop following around attention whores and trying to make yourself look good to maybe consider the one person who’s always been there? And then you complain about not fitting in anywhere or having any real friends. Well love, this is why. You are incapable of considering other people. I don’t know whether it’s spite, or ignorance, but you’re certainly causing me a lot of pain and not seeming to care at all. I’m tired of making all the effort. But being me, I can’t just stop caring. I still want you to be okay, but I also want you to want me to be okay. I’m just tired of feeling so un-important. So, this one goes out to all those people who feel like the second choices. The bottom of the priority list. The ones who are always there for people but never seem to get the same in return. The ones who keep it all to themselves and lock up their pain, having to go on with no one really bothering to support them. It may hurt now, but being a nice person isn’t always going to cause us pain. At least people have nothing to hold against us. At the end of the day, we’ve done nothing wrong. We get hurt, but hopefully, maybe it will make us stronger.

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Reblogging cos I loved this music video . K.

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One day we will.

Cuddle on the couch while we watch a movie.

Go to the park and eat ice cream.

Cook dinner together.

Go to the carnival and i’ll try to win you a prize.

Go the beach and watch the sunset together.

Get matching pillow cases, so when we sleep, we can hear the beat of our hearts.

Go to Disneyland and live our lives happily ever after.